fear.

fear is such a powerful thing.

it means that we care passionately about the outcome.

fear of commitment: ultimately is fear that commitment will lead to a change in feelings.

fear of love ultimately is a fear of loss.

fear of failure ultimately is a passion and craving for success.

fear of death is ultimately a passion for life.

fear of judgement is a yearning for love and happiness.


it can be such a strong thing, fear, when done correctly.

dont fear anything that cant kill you, take it in stride, with a grain of salt and use it to be stronger.

and dont worry about judgement, because you are so fucking beautiful just the way you are. seriously.

Song of the day

Weezer - put me back together.

One of the most romantic and intimate things around is music. Its hard to resist taking the songs for what they are on the surface. But I find its much more romantic to lay on the ground and just listen the words and imagine how it all came to fruition. Merely speculation. But beautiful nevertheless.

This one is for shane.

Love you sir. You who inspired me to love.

i havent forgotten about you.

facing my fears in their face

i have a huge fear. one of the greatest. i have a fear of bridges. not standing on them. im fine with standing on them. because i feel over confident in my swimming abilities i spose.

my fear is more concentrated to being in a car on a bridge. because im scared of being in a car underwater.

odd, yet i find it completely rational.

the greatest gift, the greatest act of love that i have experienced would have to be for my 21st birthday. my love at the time surprised me by leading me out to our cars in the morning.

upon opening the door of my escort, whom i called Lloyd (r.i.p. buddy) i see on the drivers side a life hammer in its holster.

in addition to that, he had positioned one on the inner passenger side of his car, so that when i was in his car i still felt safe. THAT is love. i wish i had thought of that myself :]

http://www.lifehammer.com/

The Original Life Hammer®

anyhow.

i faced my fears. not by choice exactly.

i have driven over plenty of bridges in my day, or have ridden over them (which is scarier because im not in control).

but in the past 2 weeks i have gotten stuck on them twice.

over the water.

in my car.

once was a traffic jam.

the other...the drawbridge went up. and holy heck that was terrifying.

it didnt make my fear go away by any means, it is very much still in tact.

but it makes me realize fear itself wont kill you.

and its okay to be scared of something.

inspirational? hardly.

just an experience.

however, my fear is no match for what was waiting on the other end of it.

i would gladly cross any bridge if there was love on the other side.