i have a huge fear. one of the greatest. i have a fear of bridges. not standing on them. im fine with standing on them. because i feel over confident in my swimming abilities i spose.
my fear is more concentrated to being in a car on a bridge. because im scared of being in a car underwater.
odd, yet i find it completely rational.
the greatest gift, the greatest act of love that i have experienced would have to be for my 21st birthday. my love at the time surprised me by leading me out to our cars in the morning.
upon opening the door of my escort, whom i called Lloyd (r.i.p. buddy) i see on the drivers side a life hammer in its holster.
in addition to that, he had positioned one on the inner passenger side of his car, so that when i was in his car i still felt safe. THAT is love. i wish i had thought of that myself :]
The Original Life Hammer®
anyhow.
i faced my fears. not by choice exactly.
i have driven over plenty of bridges in my day, or have ridden over them (which is scarier because im not in control).
but in the past 2 weeks i have gotten stuck on them twice.
over the water.
in my car.
once was a traffic jam.
the other...the drawbridge went up. and holy heck that was terrifying.
it didnt make my fear go away by any means, it is very much still in tact.
but it makes me realize fear itself wont kill you.
and its okay to be scared of something.
inspirational? hardly.
just an experience.
however, my fear is no match for what was waiting on the other end of it.
i would gladly cross any bridge if there was love on the other side.
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